Tuesday, September 29, 2009

May we all be Coffee...

So like the last post describes...the last couple days have been filled with trying to change perspective, looking forward to the challenges and trials that come my way and learning not to complain but use every situation for the Glory of God. Well I received this email from a good friend and to be honest I usually just ignore the whole "chain mail/forward" emails but being a coffee lover and seeing the subject mention coffee I was intrigued....I also am bored these days so anything random to read can be entertaining.
Well this is what I found when I opened it and I wanted to share it with you all because I'm not sure about you but being the visual, creative person that I am I learn and am impacted a lot stronger through analogies...this is a good one.

Subject: may we all be coffee

Carrots, Eggs & Coffee

A carrot, an egg, and a cup of coffee...You will never look at a cup of coffee the same way again.


A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up, She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.


Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil.. In the first she e placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans.. She let them sit and boil; without saying a word.


In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, ' Tell me what you see.'


'Carrots, eggs, and coffee,' she replied.


Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hardboiled egg.


Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma. The daughter then asked, ' So what does it mean, mother?'


Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.


'Which are you?' she asked her daughter. 'When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?


Think of this: Which am I?

Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?


Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?


Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest do you elevate yourself to another level?

How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?


May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy.


The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.


When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling..
Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying..

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Perspective

So everytime this past week I have told someone my situation and this long, boring wait for a job and how if we don't hear about jobs by wed we don''t get our apartment...everyone has responded with..."Kelsey, God never works that way with you...you know that you are not going to find out until Wed if you have a job."
Then Mamma Scott being the wise person that she is...says "You just need to wait, then wake up wed morning expecting a job."
so we kinda hit our days of being ready to give up this weekend...we were complaining about the weather, the waiting, the not having money, the not being able to have a schedule, not being able to eat healthy, etc, etc....In the back of my mind I'm going, Kelsey you are SO blessed, there are people who literally have NOTHING...but does that stop me? Of course not.
SO we went to church this morning and the first round of worship was incredible and slowly eased us into what was about to be a big face smacking. They did songs about trusting God and stepping closer to Him, He will never let you go, depend on Him...you starting to see where this is going? I was but again...Denial.
Then it was all laid out....Paul and Silas, in the prison, singing praise. But not just light and fluffy like that, nope with great detail about the pain they endured, the conditions they were in, the fact that they had EVERY reason to complain...but didn't. Then the pastor goes on to give examples of what we complain about...to bad the examples ALL applied to me :( "Why are you complaining and worried about not having the finances? Not knowing your living situation? Not having the job you want? (By now Jenna and I are glancing at each other "guilty" written all over our faces).
He put it this way...if you were a writer you don't just write things on accident...it is all with a purpose, even if the reader doesn't see the reason right away. This life, this journey, is not your story to write...This is God's. we need to choose if we are going to stick around long enough to see the reasons and the results. Then we end and again come the songs of, trust, surrender, perspective.
Perspective was a word used a lot this morning throughout the sermon and it has really stuck with me...we choose which perspective to take and I seem to be pretty good at taking the doubtful, pessimistic one....when really I should be excitedly taking the perspective of Wow, God is doing something incredible here and I am honored to be considered a part of it.
So back on track and ready to face the week....jobs by wed=apartment no jobs by wed= taking positive perspective and seeing what else He has in store.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

VOTE FOR ELIANA!

Ok Please vote everyday for my sweet niece Eliana...I know this is a little shallow compared to the last post but we gotta have some fun and joy in our lives :)
You can also go to the facebook event!
http://family.go.com/gapcastingcall/entries/lindseyewheeler/93799996/


Food Shortage

You ever feel homesick and completely helpless all at the same time? I would love to be home in Guatemala right now but maybe the helplessness would be even stronger if I was....please pray for these hurting people...please pray for my dear family Andrew and Hannah, Scott, Melissa, Madi and dear baby Caden as they are living in Guatemala. Please pray for my dear kiddos at Casa Bernabe...and especially, pray for all the people struggling to provide for their families.
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/8254841.stm

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Desperate Roomates...

Before you start questioning the title for this post let me explain: Jenna and I have been constantly going through and figuring out budgets, how to get furniture, how to get connected and make friends ect...whenever we mention any of these to someone they usually respond with "Oh you should put up an ad in the Fellowship Bible Church classifieds". Well this is what our ad would look like....

Desperate Roomates-in need of-
we just moved here, have no jobs,
not a single piece of furniture, no money, and no friends.
If you have kids for us to babysit, families for us to photograph,
furniture for our apartment, people to be our friends, real jobs to give us
or really just anything at all that you can give...we would be very grateful.

Sound desperate?

So the last week and half have held a lot of adventure. We were sitting with our friends Chris and Lindsey Wheeler and voicing our "frustration" over not being able to find jobs and not having anything to do with no money to do anything with. They gave us the ol wise advice of "Just take advantage of this time in your life". So we decided to do just that.
We have managed to fill our days (on the side of looking for jobs) with lots of fun things....let me just give you a visual...it's so much better that way.

we went to try on shoes at DSW and Ross...we had to see what it felt like to wear some good ol TN cowboy boots...




Then being smart we thought, lets go garage sale shopping for furniture...and we had been warned- get there early and grab what you want...well we always laughed when people said that but oh RAIN or shine these people are SERIOUS about there garage sales! several neighbor hoods were having sales and this is what they all looked like...it was near immpossible to get in or OUT of the neighborhood and I'm telling you it was POURING we looked like we had just gone swimming...BUT it only poured when we just happened to be standing with a stuff in our hands manuvering them into the side doors of my car because my back door doesn't open....


we found this shelf and in the pouring rain it looked pretty nice...a little paint and it would be great ($2 is hard to beat) yeah then we took this picture.....worth $2? we will see


but the moments that make it all worth the craziness....and those God moments that take your breathe away....are like this.....


So that is our update....we are sitting here...I now have no bank account (still got my wonderful credit card debt) babysitting money in my pocket, canceled photoshoots, a broken down car, a week of waiting and counting pennies....but then Sunday..I finally have orientation for my NEW JOB at Pier 1. God works in mysterious ways

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Twists and Turns...still waiting

Not much new has happened since my last post...we are still in the stage of "Be still...and wait". and wait. and wait. yeah you get the picture. This journey has been such a road of laughter, unexpected turns, frustrations and many unknowns. Jenna and I were in the car yesterday after yet another typical "Jenna Kelsey" incident and we decided we need to start carrying a camera around to document this journey to share with you all. Words just don't quite give you the whole picture but I will try my best:
Since Jenna arrived on Wed we have run out of money, counted change at taco bell and got so excited when we realized we could get an 89 cent burrito!!! Have gone through major transitions of "wow everytime we have been together in the last 4 years we have been stressing or feeling guilty about homework"....now...we sit here waiting going hmmm, what are we supposed to do with ourselves, we have no money to go do something, we have no friends, cool. It's been full of funny moments too...like discovering that TN storage units have these green grasshopper things that are literally ALL over ALL the walls and doors and you have to walk through all of them to get to your unit....yeha picture two girls from MN/CO bolting through waving their hands in the air and jumping in the car as fast as possible. There are also the moments of "Holy Cow" is this for real?Like when we found an incredible deal on an apartment and put down our deposit (now it would be nice to have a job so we can actually MOVE IN) or Like our interview with Pier One. No big deal right? Yeah until you go in and the manager starts talking about God's plan for us and how he is neighbors with the Chapmans and is so excited about me wanting to work for Show Hope...people are pretty nice here. Then there are the awkward moments of Amy Grant's son taking the dresser up to our room and us trying to help and turn on the lights but not being enough room and Jenna almost having a moment on "hand on boys butt" and then us realizing that well my suitcase is open with lots of nice underwear just kinda laying out.....
And then today...we had to run some stuff into the Show Hope office for Kathy and there standing right there is Steven Curtis Chapman...no big deal. He has only been walking around all afternoon as we sit here in the coffee shop.
I am still waiting for a job, I got to "work" for Show Hope yesterday because they needed someone to watch the office...it made me want the job that much more. So close, but not yet quite within reach :(
Life is full of the unexpected....full of laughter....frustrations....and moments that someday we will look back on and smile...grateful for the stories and the Journey that led us to the future.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Out of the mouths of babes.....

Once again I am reminded of what faith and trust look like by watching the example of a child. I am reminded of the joy of life and unconditional love by watching a tiny little mayan diva.
Today was filled with many "discouragements" as I would see them in my pessimistic eye. However God's gentle reminders have left me on my knees again, trusting that His plan is yet to be revealed to me and I must "Be still".
The past few months have been filled with the unexpected and the unknown....I have tried my best to follow blindly and have so many times caught myself doubting God's faithfulness, I would be lying if I said I hadn't. But so many times God has spoken through those around me and made it clear that I am going where I am supposed to go. So I'm here in a new state with $35 dollars in my bank account, a car that's about to give out on me, a dream job just out of grasp, No job, and no idea what the future holds. When I named this blog I had no idea that I would still be in the "unknown" stage of the journey.
However, as always, never failing...God is using the low times, the scary times, to teach me the lessons that I will forever hold tight to. Faith.
Let me explain:
A year ago I left Guatemala not knowing when my sweet Eliana and her mama would be coming home, having walked with them through nightmares and trials and fallen in love with this dear miracle baby girl. I look at her now, a year later, and she is safe in her parent's arms at home. It was/is a journey of faith.
I have been so blessed to have been spending the last week staying with them and have been shown so much through this sweet girl. The other day it hit me so hard as Eliana was crying and throwing a nice normal two year old fit ;) from her eyes life was completely unfair, mean and cruel...even though she could not see through her daddy's eyes that he was only protecting her, and preparing her to be a woman of God. But yet despite this, despite the unknown for her....in the midst of the tears and screams, her daddy asks her for a kiss and in that instant she stops, tears rolling down her cheek, and reaches her little face up and kisses her daddy. She knows that even though she does not understand, even though she feels that life right now is totally unfair....she can have faith in her father. She HAS faith in her father and she was willing to give up during the fight, let go...and show him...that yes, she will continue to love him and follow blindly.
This is just one of the lessons she has taught.....
Eliana is a child who has more love for life than any other single human being I have ever met in my life. The child has one speed.....Fast. She is constantly jumping, running, yelling, laughing, and acting like cookie monster (her newest trick). There is no luke warm for her. She is a all or nothing sorta girl. Just looking at her brings tears to my eyes because I see the story God has already given her and I cannot wait to see where He takes her in the future....she is already ready to go all the way with the passion that can change the world. That is how I want to live. I want to be all there...I want to live with a passion that makes everyone around me turn and look, not in a flashy sort of way but in the sense that those watching say...I want that energy for life and God, I want that passion.
and yet another lesson of the week....
Linds came down the other night after having done the nightly ritual of reading the children's bible with Eliana and praying with her and she begins to tell us how it went.....
She said they were looking at the crucifixion page and Eliana touches Jesus' hands and looks into her mama's face and says "Booboo?" and being the incredible Mom that she is Linds goes yes...Jesus had those boo boos for you. Eliana goes, oo boo boo with her sweet sensitive little voice.
How many times do we read that passage..or look at a picture and are so numb and used to it that it doesn't even make us blink? And yet this little two year old can look at a children's bible picture of Jesus in his glorified, blow dried hair, perfect clothing drawing and see that He HURT for us? He came and suffered for us.

Out of the mouths of babes is not just a cutesy little saying...it is so full of truth and we should open our eyes and watch.

So throughout a day of disappointment and doubt, wondering what I am doing moving myself halfway across the country with no job and no money...I am reminded that God is bigger than my bank account...he is the one who knows the bigger picture and there is no reason for me to sit here and throw a fit just because I don't understand....instead I need to just wait...be still, and wait.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

The Journey continues...

Here I am...still in the waiting period of the transition phase. It's such a time of mixed emotions and desires. On one hand I am happier than I have been in a long time, I have so much to look forward to, am blessed with so many opportunities and am getting to spend some amazing quality time with my dear Wheeler family. On the other hand I am craving a settled life, predictability, friendship, and the knowledge that I will be able to make ends meet day by day. The feeling of not moving back onto a campus with 3000 people my own age as left me surprisingly a little sad and missing people so, I have become a facebook adict since getting to Franklin :) and am catching up from not having much cell service this past summer....sooo to those of you who have gotten several texts from me or phone calls.....I'm just excited to talk to people my age....either that or Eliana has found my phone and decided you were special enough for her to call haha.
God has taken me on a crazy ride and despite the road blocks and attacks that have come He has still gotten me to where I am sitting right now and I know that I need to trust that tomorrow is in His hands.
Tomorrow I go in and meet with Show Hope and interview to see if I will be considered for staff, Jenna gets here Thurs night, we look at apartments and stop at storage Friday.....we have quite the week ahead :)


On a totally side note...CONGRATULATIONS SCHRODER FAMILY!!! Welcome to the world dear little Lily Anne.

Saturday, September 5, 2009

karate CHica

alright everyone has been asking me what I have been up to since moving to Franklin.....well I thought I would just share with you all how I have been spending my time.....

and that is who I have been spending time with...today we sat cuddled on the couch watching Disney channel music videos on my computer....I am treasuring the moments with my baby girl and making up for lost time....I missed getting Eliana kisses everyday and still cannot believe that I am finally here to stay     :)

Friday, September 4, 2009

Stepping forward....

So I felt that since I was venturing into a new adventure it was time to start a new blog....the old one holds a lot of emotions and stories and it's simply time to move forward.
This was going to be started after graduation, when I began the adventure of being a nanny to 11 adorable kids....but being a nanny to 11 adorable kids can be pretty time consuming and it just never happened.
To sum up the past few months could take pages and pages.....May held many mixed emotions of saying goodbye to a place I had called home for four years, saying goodbye to friends I had lived with, cried with, studied with, laughed with, worked with etc......the feeling of relief after my very last final can not be described...a journey I thought would never end did..successfully (and keeping me company with many loans).


The week after the wonderful day of graduation my dear brother got married to the most incredible girl I have ever known. Their wedding was perfection, full of tears, laughter and celebration. I was spilling with pride for my big brother all day and in awe of his beautiful bride. He did good.




A day after the wedding I took off, saying goodbye to the St. Olaf campus and moved to Sulphur Springs Texas. Talk about a culture shock. I was in for a summer full of stories, challenges, hard times, incredible times, and three months of having my socks blessed off. There was never a dull moment....ever. I fell in love with my dear kiddos and had a great time being initiated into the Texas culture of two-steppin, tailgate partying, and late night wal-mart runs.











And now here I am sitting in TN awaiting the next adventure.....
After a summer of going back and forth and searching for what was God's will and what wasn't I finally decided that I was supposed to be in Nashville. This decision left me beyond excited and utterly heart broken. Saying goodbye to these precious faces was going to be unimaginable.......but looking forward to this was a dream come true......





so that is my quick summary of life....very shallow....nothing very deep or exciting.....but now begins the adventure of starting my life....no more school. no more short time summer jobs.....this is it